fantasy land
Posted by Canis_Lupus at 03:50 AM on September 26, 2008.
save me.
save me from my fantasy land.
i'm trapped. trapped in my own little world, filled with naive notions of the universe.
i'm drowning. drowning in a sea of romanticism i've created in my mind. and i continue to stay in.
refusing to get on the life raft of what people call reality.
i continue to tread water in the oceans of my dreams, hoping that one day you and fate would come rescue me.
but i know you will never come.
you don't even know where i am, how i am, and how i feel about you because i'm too much of a coward to tell you.
and fate? well, truth is... fate/life/universe, is indifferent.
"who gives a fuck if you drown. you make your own choices."
and i choose to drown.
why?
i don't know. i think it's because i'm really nothing but a sad pathetic romantic wannabe who would rather stay miserable by keeping you in my heart, than to move on without you in it.
deep down in my heart, i'm wishing you feel the same too.
i know you don't. i just choose to continue to wish it so. like a foolish dreamer.
i stand still, letting everything pass me by. even you.
and i can't help myself. coz i don't want to. i'd rather be in pain than forget you.
someone slap me from this self-absorbed self-pity. shake me the fuck up.
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(3.49 A.M.)
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